the INLAID EAR

I like this about having written poetry for thirty years: I can go back to old notebooks or old electronic files and find things I wrote that I don't now understand. I can see me in there, but I can't recall what I meant. So the poem must stand on its own. I assume, then that this poem from seven years ago was actually from a dream. If it makes sense to you, explain it to me. "Noodle prophecy from a dream" Sensible custom says that when the emperor offers you a noodle from his priceless bowl of udon, bow your deep gratitude--and refuse. His servant will offer noodles to everyone. All will bow, smile, bow, refuse. The emperor, one day soon, will need to fight for udon, defend each sesame seed from huns and djinis and dragons, protect our right to eat soba with smoked trout with his considerable armies and all his myth. But what if, tourist that I am, I accept the noodle? What if I suck it from the chopsticks the ser...

My attention in grad school divided. Some stayed on my declaration to be a master of poetry. Comedy, on the other hand, was an equally attractive mistress-muse and one I'd loved almost as long—and I loved me on stage. To rage or parody or flat out goof or pratfall or streak naked—I was free, and on that stage, I needed no more proof. The undersexed (thus socially awkward) protopoet, who was never aloof but seemed to be so, found his misfit tribe acting out his angst in blood-red self-spoof. Ruttish sex, deviant sex, vibrators, weed, nitrous oxide, mushrooms, LSD— all in play—while in poems I circumscribed subterranean fires like some chaste scribe.

Do you want to put your hand on my belly and feel it kicking? I am glowing with its near-complete gestation, not dreading the labor of its arrival but aching with the anticipation, the slowness of its slow coming. I am blissed out with impatience. I am popping! The book! The book! Early Cover Concept by Eric Lindsey

this is how I feel about the book project  * * * I WANT it! I can't stop looking at it. I study its shape and odor and size as though expecting it any moment to shift, change, vanish, explode. If flung, I will go after and get it on the first bounce. If hidden, I will sniff where last seen until it's revealed. If held, I will continue to stare up, my whole face quivering, my whole body poised to, to, to I focus on how I will chew it, how I will lick into its very essence and the directories of its pieces, the threads that tie it up to the rest of what is keeping me away right now. I will free the cloudy stuff inside it, the piece of its core that makes the sounds. I will fling the disassembled unity into the air in a new broader unity — like the big bang — and roll in all the stuff that flies around artfully scattered, array all around me, panting in utter joy that smells like triumph.